LOOK AT THE TIME... LOOK AT THE TIME...

V late post right? Haiz... I just feel like sleeping, even though I'm tired out le...

U know what? I'm starting to drift away from the kind of normal girl that my parents expected me to be... I'm feeling very guilty about it, but there are some things that cant be changed or prevented... V sian and confused about it... Been having sleepless nights since dunno when...

(1) I wanna put 1 more hole in my right ear, the upper part of the ear... To be more precise, the bone there...

(2) I feel like getting a tattoo... Near the part where my spine joins the pelvic bone... Cool right? But I wouldn't wear revealing clothes to reveal it de lar... Anyway, if i really get the tattoo, i'll get killed 1st before i can get the chance to show anyone... So I guess it's just a thought...

(3) I'm not your straight kind of gal who likes guys only... I like girls too... Which makes me a bi... I can't imagine the kind of reaction if my parents get to know of this... Er, to the girls who are reading this, don't worry, the girl i like is so far away in taiwan, it's not u, k? Yar, before u start to make some wild guesses, I like Hebe... Don't start questioning me why I like her, I don't know the answer myself... If I knew why, I wouldnt be so confused like I'm now... Trying not to think about it so much, in case I get so vexed til I do something stupid which I'll regret for the rest of my life...

See? I'm not the guai guai gal le right? Haiz... It's so hard to live up to expectations... It's choking me... I can't even find a person I can be comfortable with to cry on her shoulders... I just don't feel like troubling anyone when everyone has their own problems to solve... What to do, this is life to me... Endless problems to solve, keeps piling up and up... Beneath the smiling face you see everyday, is a soul that is desperately trying to find her way around life without much success...