mOrNiNg.....

haha, abit weird 2 update d blog in d morning... yar, haf alot of mixed feelings after chatting wif d NIE guy yest nite... but den i wanna complain abt something else 1st... wah... d seniors nxt door were hafin a miting or wad at ard 1 am lor... dey were making a heck of noise man... cld hear dem even when i was blasting music on mi earphones... nearly wanted 2 ask dem 2 tone dwn abit... but den... yar, i'm still d coward lar... hahaha...

erm... yar lor... had alot of mixed feelings n thts after chatting on msn wif d NIE guy... was wondering y heaven wans 2 play such a trick on mi... wl n kevin (d NIE guy deh...) r totally frm 2 differents worlds... i noe it's totally unfair 2 compare, but den even w/o spending time wif kevin, i noe tat dey're v diff lor...

n i haf d kind of mindset tat i'm nt worthy of kevin at all... it's like he's frm VJ, i'm frm NY... he's eng is super powerful, mine suxs like dunno wad (i'm trying 2 wk on tat, hope it improves...)... he has a car, meaning he's quite well-to-do, or shd i sae veri well-to-do since i can guess he lives in landed property? Oh gosh... d 2 men who some1 up dere send 2 mi realli a world of difference lor...

wad m i supposed 2 do? i do admit i haf abit of feelings 4 kevin... but den... yar, d more i tink of it, d more i feel tat i'm nt worthy of him... even as a frn lor... haiz... i noe we ain't even frns who go out, but thru d chats i've wif him, i get hints tat he wans something further than juz being frns lor... wad shd i do?

it seems tat guys (i mean d 2 of dem...) all noe wad i'm tinkin of most of d time... issit true huh? dey seems 2 be able 2 understand mi from d back of his palms man... abit scary leh... m i such a simple-minded person such tat any1 can read like a bk??!! hehehe...

hmm, i tink i shd let d matter rest til mi tests nxt wk r over bah... dis kind of relationship matter realli noes howta choose timings... wahahaha....